don't make me do it

i have to start teaching tomorrow. i've barely left my apartment in the past week and now i have to trudge all the way out of not only my neighborhood, but my burrough. and all to stand in front of students who won't even listen to me while i pretend to teach. whimper.

and if that isn't enough i keep looking at my course schedule for this fall which makes me want to curl up into a ball and cry myself to sleep.